Advent

Alarm snoozed
No less than three times
Sunlight from attic window
Heavy eyelids, half dazed mind
The warmth and comfort of the duvet
I pushed aside
Out of bed I jumped
Bathroom, basin and foggy mirror
And a torturous ice cold shower
As I came to my senses
I left home with my winter attire
-3 at 11am
Legs trudged through mud and snow
My Nike Air never fails me but not today
It's me versus black ice
but the upper hand belongs to the latter
20 minutes flew by
Destination reached
The warmth, a different warmth this time
It felt nostalgic
It has been 2 months
I'm back, Father
Are You there?
Am I late?
Would You welcome me with open arms?
To one of the left pews I sat
Five minutes before the bell rang
Five minutes of quiet time
It felt good
It must be Your grace
Something that was missing in my life
For the past 60 days
Busy chasing the worldly dream
I'm glad to be home again
Am I forsaken by You?
I asked
Instead of an answer
You asked me that in return.


Reminder to self/ Message for today: Make the path straight for the Lord, in your heart and in your mind.

Thus, the second candle of Advent is lighted.