Fight

Argh! Here it goes again. The feeling of homesickness overwhelms me the whole of today. Went to check Eithad Airways website and saw Kuala Lumpur under 'Promotional Deals'. The price: 685 Euros. sigh. I should be celebrating Germany's victory over Uruguay in the 3rd/4th placing match which ended just a while ago but I ain't in the mood. My mind and eyes were fixed at the Etihad website, clicking the available flight dates here and there... Why am I feeling so down today? Yesterday I just told myself that I won't let this affect me so much but helplessness is all I feel now. Lord, where are you? I need Your strength to overcome this terrible feeling. Stuck at home on a rainy Saturday I have no one to relate this lousy feeling to but You. It is dawn in Malaysia now as I'm typing this and most of my MSN companions are offline. Karyn didn't appear online today either. Perhaps she was appearing offline but in the end I didn't even say hi to her today, although I really wanted to.. Gosh, this is really absurd and I'm so not myself. There's no point already. I had to close the Etihad Airways website.

Perhaps I should just spend some quiet time with the Lord and then rest. It's going to be a long day tomorrow. Church and then 10 hours of work. No World Cup Final for me but I ain't complaining. Work comes first and I really need money to survive here. Sacrifice is something I should learn here in Dublin. I hope it will be worth it. I know it will. And I have faith everything will be alright...soon.